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Bakery Day 20: dreams dreams dreams

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Generally speaking, when we talk about dreams we are referring to two different types of dreams, those we have when our eyes are closed and asleep, and those that have aspirations, like I dream of becoming and astronaut who teaches meditation on the moon to elephants.. don’t laugh, it could happen...

Today I want to talk about the sleepy ones, you already know my other dream has come true and continues daily. Two nights ago I had an amazing dream. It was strange, but amazing. It was in the evening and I was walking down a long road while the sun was setting, talking with my stepfather Eddie (no one else calls him Eddie btw). There were wheat fields to the left and right and shadows casting from a few trees in the distant. The sky was golden with pinkish streaks and the weather just perfect. While we were walking I was calculating how much it would cost for him to drive from his home to my home in north jersey in his Prius (he doesn’t own a Prius).

And in the next moment I was in bakers clothing, soaked from working hard and late to a seminar which was to start at 10pm. As i entered the room there were many people and i greeted them all. The leader of the seminar invited me up on stage, maybe because I did what no one else did (greeting) and then, I took the microphone like I was meant to be there, and explained the reason we have dreams and how each one of us can make them come true.

Last night, I had a polar opposite dream. I was somewhere familiar and I brought home four small bags with things I bought earlier in the day. One was a spider, two of them I do not remember, and the fourth was a saw scaled viper snake, but red. It’s head was very large. While on the ground a little boy kept trying to hit it with a stick and I said it’s the worlds most deadly snake please get away. The snake never was bothered by the kid. But the moment it saw me, it started to attack. It kept lunging at me with bites until it finally reached me, struck a blow, and I woke up.

Now, I know what you are thinking, what does this have to do with the bakery? Fair enough!! We have been having a few problems and two days ago sandy worked on them some and then yesterday, with sandy sitting with me, I brought them up again. With great sadness, we agreed with the person working for us that it would not work out long term. It was even his suggestion. So I went from lovely dreams to this one last night. I woke this morning and realized that the best thing to do would be respectful but free him immediately. This allows him to continue his dream and search and it takes out the worry of how the following days would be. To be clear, I think things would have continued well, but I have always felt that once a foot is out the door then the love soon follows, and it’s imperative that love prevails every working moment for the bakery to be successful.

Since this departure I have been very sad. I know it’s the right decision but I also know he is a very nice guy that I like very much. It’s not the first time I have had to do this and it will not be the last. But what is important is that it never becomes easy, as if it does, that means I have lost my love and that would be a tragedy.

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And in lighter news ... one of the customers came in today to get her gluten free bread and she told me she wanted to try the chocolate croissant (pain du chocolat)... I was embarrassed to watch as she took a bite for fear she would not like it, but she loved it.. a lot!! That made me smile.. then later a man came in and he had a croissant and said it was really good. This too made me smile... and I have an order for 10 of them tomorrow, which means I will be back in the bakery in a few hours to make them. I was planning on attending an event today for the rights of horses used for pulling humans around the city but I must put the bakery first. There will be more opportunities to support this important issue.

And for those of you still awake, sandy had been amazing with her help and support. She is working now, after working the day shift yesterday and then cleaning the house last night, doing the laundry, making dinner, and taking care of the fur/hair babies ❤️

 

 
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