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Bakery Day 30 pt. 2: what did I expect?

Before the bakery opened I really had no idea what to expect. To be honest, I may have been in a bubble but I thought all I needed to do was sell bread and everything would be super.

It never occurred to me that I would be struggling to make pastries every day along with their assorted items because bread would not be nearly enough.  Today I was told that my story was believed and that I sold the idea well and now it’s nothing like I said it would be.

I spent months, every single day, working on my bread skills, to make better breads than the previous bakes and to really grow as a baker. My thoughts were not set on baking beyond bread. It’s a sad reality that I am now dealing with, playing catch-up to something I have known a whole lot about, and what is worse, doing it at the expense of the customer. How much of the same stuff are they willing to put up with? Low quality foods baked with good intentions but served in sophomoric style?

What I want to know, is what do I do? I am out of money. I am out of energy, I am losing my love fast, and those whom I love the most suffer the entire time.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger ... it’s killing me, slowly, daily.

And that’s reality.

#doeverythingwithlove

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