Bakery Day 86: depressing

I did not feel well today with my work. I gave the integral bread a good amount of time for fermentation and they easily got to 80% when I put them in the oven. Yet, somehow by the end they were smaller when they came out of the oven and just terrible in my opinion.

That set a tone for the day. I had some other baking failures as well, including the coffee chocolate chip cookies and a cake I made. I managed to bake a couple of other things that turned out nicely and sandy helped me some as well.

But I think most of my down mood came from spending an hour at the phone place getting a factura for my stolen security system. This just reminded me of how difficult things have been and still seem to be two steps backwards. Honestly, I wanted to give up today and just say forget it, it is just not worth this battle anymore. Then I am reminded that I have no money left and I have no other options. But it also occurred to me that walking away is admitting I was beat. I am in no way ready to admit that.

So, after 14 hours of work today I went home and just decided to not think about this anymore today. Tomorow is a new day and I embrace that notion as a way to sleep perfectly tonight. I am not surprised by my mood swings from excited to sad. Mainly because of everything involved. I just have to keep remembering that every tunnel has a light at the end of it and it is me who chooses if I want to go towards the light or not.

Thank you for reading ❤️

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