I got to the bakery a bit late today, around 6. I was exhausted from the previous two days of work and just dragging to get there and work.
I managed to get many things done and we sold all of the bread again except two gluten free breads. So I felt pretty good about that. Also a woman with her family stopped me leaving the bakery a bit disappointed because I was out of integral bread. She said it tastes amazing and her daughter loved it!!!
But during the day I became aware of something about myself that I did not like. I was short and irritated easily and finding myself angry when it just was not necessary. I am almost certain it was because of how tired I have been. That means I am still not smart enough about the work I am doing in the kitchen!
so we closed at two today and did not reopen later. Maybe it cost us some money but we are so tired that it was better to be closed and lose a little bit of money than to be open and fighting. Tonight when Sandy and I were talking she asked me, “did you not know how much work the bakery would be?” And my answer is always yes and no. I knew they were a lot of work, but I really had no idea of the magnitude. It is just too much for one person. Period! This frightens me because I do not want to lose my love for the bakery but I know I must find better solutions for me and for Sandy so we can survive and prosper.
So that is that.. a day of unprovoked anger and unhappiness .. I love the bakery just as much as every other day but somehow I felt resentment today and that is sad!
thank you so much for reading today’s post. I dedicate it to Niekunj Chavda who passed away many months back. Today would be his birthday and I miss him like everyone else who he touched along his journey.
#doeverythingwithlove
I managed to get many things done and we sold all of the bread again except two gluten free breads. So I felt pretty good about that. Also a woman with her family stopped me leaving the bakery a bit disappointed because I was out of integral bread. She said it tastes amazing and her daughter loved it!!!
But during the day I became aware of something about myself that I did not like. I was short and irritated easily and finding myself angry when it just was not necessary. I am almost certain it was because of how tired I have been. That means I am still not smart enough about the work I am doing in the kitchen!
so we closed at two today and did not reopen later. Maybe it cost us some money but we are so tired that it was better to be closed and lose a little bit of money than to be open and fighting. Tonight when Sandy and I were talking she asked me, “did you not know how much work the bakery would be?” And my answer is always yes and no. I knew they were a lot of work, but I really had no idea of the magnitude. It is just too much for one person. Period! This frightens me because I do not want to lose my love for the bakery but I know I must find better solutions for me and for Sandy so we can survive and prosper.
So that is that.. a day of unprovoked anger and unhappiness .. I love the bakery just as much as every other day but somehow I felt resentment today and that is sad!
thank you so much for reading today’s post. I dedicate it to Niekunj Chavda who passed away many months back. Today would be his birthday and I miss him like everyone else who he touched along his journey.
#doeverythingwithlove
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